| so many things have changed since a year ago. flipside on sunday was a perfect example of that. every single one of us arrived this year in a different way from last year. it was just so odd to see everyone in the same place, but with different people and lots of changes.
so many things have changed since a year ago.
prime example number two: my work ethic. usually bad grades would frighten me into better grades. now, i find myself not really caring that i have 3 e's.. and i figure that my grades will fix themselves eventually. i never do homework anymore really. my time is spent with the people i care about and doing more meaningful things than essays. i think it's pointless to stress about school. after thinking about it, i got the same grade in ap world as a girl who spends an immense amount of time making sure everything is perfect for that class. it's pretty much a waste. as long as i have the people i care about and i'm livingggg and having fun, then f everything else. life isn't fun if you can't enjoy every single day of it.
ejemplo three: my many new relationships. i've made a lot of new friends this year.. and i've transformed many acquaintances into awesome friends. i'm learning who's real and who's fake and it's awesome to surround myself with people who'll tell me the truth even if i don't want to hear it. i am so thankful for every new person i've made friends with this year.
lately i've become pretty "nostalgic"
it's really odd because i've always been one to worry and overly care about everything. now, i let things go.. maybe too often. i care about things, obviously, but it's weird to me to be able to let things go without stressing over them.
i'm a little disappointed in myself for allowing certain habits to continue, but the time will come to face those.
i'm almost finished with the davinci code, and my friend leonard made me so upset that i cried in school.
i really need a good shop. but first i think i'll need some money. which i have none of, since i have no job. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| i'm very frustrated with a number of things right now.
some are rational while some others may think are completely stupid.
i'm tired of lots of things.
i'm annoyed and pissed off and in an awful fucking mood with certain aspects of daily life.
thaaat sucks. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 11:36 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/tired.gif) tired |
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| A - Available: noo :)
A - Age: 17
A - Annoyance: bida.
B - Best Friends: rachael.
B - Bar: i haven't made friends with a bar yet
B - Birthday: 2/6/89
C - Crush: the obvious and maybe a little of johnny depp
C - Car: jetta
C - Cat: she won't be around for long if she keeps meowing like that.
D - Dead Pet's Name: avenger hahah and tweety and then my hamster :( how sad.
D - Dad's Name: jake aka terrence
D - Dog: three. crotchard, noodles, billyblindass.
E - Easiest person to talk to: jesse
E - Eggs: over easy with toast and butter. but then i get in a scrambled mood sometimes.
E - Email: keemers@comcast.net
F - Favorite color: purple
F - Food: right now i'll say pizza. sometimes i like other stuff though.
F - Foreign Slang: slag. also pretty much anything from harry potter hahah
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: gummy bears
G - God: not sure. i pray to something though
G - Good Time: with friends
H - Hair Color: dark brown
H - Height: 5'7"
H - Happy: mhmmmm
I - Ice Cream: cookies and cream from baskin robins
I - Instrument: guitar. maybe some bass too.
I - Idol: nicole kidman
J - Jewelry: tiffanys as long as i don't lose it. big necklaces too.
J - Job: regal.
J - Joke: what do you do if a shark tries to attack you? punch it in the face. what if that doesn't work? then you poke it in the eye with your stump. baahahaha
K - Kids: much later.
K - Karate: unfortunately, no :(
K - Kung Fu: f yes!?
L - Longest Car Ride: to florida in my mom's cavalier. hell? yeeeah.
L - Longest Relationship: two and a half years.
M - Milk Flavor: chocolateeee
M - Mother's Name: tammy
M - Movie Last Watched: almost famous
N - Number of Siblings: none :(
N - Northern or Southern: north as in new york. south as in yes warm weather.
N - Name: kimmie
O - One wish: to be happy when i grow up. not care about money or what job or being a millionare. being happy with my life.
O - Otter Pop: what the crap?
O - One Phobia: spiders.
P - Parents, are they married or divorced: married
P - Part of your appearance you like best: maybe my belly button.
P - Part of your personality you like best: i'm always laughing. that can be bad too, though.
Q - Quote: "..together they shared laughs, disappointments, moments of grace, but most importantly, they shared dreams"
Q - Question for the next person: what are you doing?
Q - Quick or Slow?: both.
R - Reason to smile: i can think of a bunch. life, for one.
R - Reality TV Show: americas next top model
R - Right or Left: LEFTY!
S - Song Last Heard: fireman hahah
S - Season: summmmer
S - Sex: ..female? or the good stuff?
T - Time you woke up: 7:00
T - Time Now: 11:59
T - Time for bed: whenever i'm tired
U - Unknown Fact about me: i laugh off things that really bother me (or try to)
U - Unicorns: sweet band?
U - you are: so f-ing sleepy. pissed at myself for not doing homework. not going to do homework. smelling like popcorn. waiting for a phonecalll :)
V - Vegetable you hate: i pretty much despise the whole cooked vegetable group.
V - Vegetable you love: carrots. only if they're not cooked.
V - View on Politics: just don't kill me?
W- Worst Habits: i'm a mad procrastinator
W- Where are you going to travel next? i wanna go to friggin europe.
W- What are your goals for March? do well in school.
X - X-Rays: i got one on my knee before.
X - X-Rated Porn: loveit.
X - X-tra special someone: jessface
Y - Year you were born: 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: the color of the walls in my old germantown house.
Z - Zoo Animal: the sweet "free-roaming" monkeys. maybe the orangatang too.
Z - Zodiac: aquariussss
Z - Zoolander: jordan on a snowboard? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i've come to the conclusion that i've changed a lot this year.
bad or good? i'm hoping it's for the best.
well for the most part. not the whole slacking in school thing, though. i'm kind of angry at myself for letting my grades and effort slip. it's not too late though so i think it's time to get my act together.
i don't know why i write in this anymore. i think it's because i'm too lazy to actually write in a journal. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| ahh! my birthday celebration weekend was so nicee
it all started with the lovely present of report cards on thursday.
it wasn't completely horrible.
friday was much nicer. jesse took me to a splendid dinner :)
saturday i awoke at 8 to go to a regal meeting at 9 and that sucked
but then me and boo went to breakfast after.
the wrestling match was pretty awesome
next was the mftm show.
the ride up was pretty wicked with pat cronin (who i haven't seen in a gagillion years) and coop and we were dancing.
the show was bangin.
then cece's afterward was definitely bangin' times 5849038.
i heart you, cece.
i also heart you maca. and we really need to go on our date.
sunday i spent with rae and ash driving around.. we went to cosi's then the mall where rae and i tried on ridiculously expensive dresses for no reason.
then my mom and rae and i went to "cheeburger x2" and ate.
i spent the entire weekend listening to third eye blind's first cd and jimmy eat world.
i'm really angry that james blunt at 930 is sold out.
i finally spent a few hours in barnes and noble just reading. it was grand.
rachael made me a card for my bday and it made me cry.
i've been really happy lately and it's a nice feeling.
dear becca and shanee: i miss you a lot. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | i don't remember signing up for a lecture based course this semester. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | whitelinesacoustic | | Subject: | ever. | | Time: | 11:29 pm |
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| someone buy me "my friend leonard" by james frey.
new york was this weekend and i had a damn good time.
i listened to james blunt moneen and the mars volta the entire car ride up.
i got caught in a hailstorm
saw a fight
and a car accident
it was pretty action packed and awesome.
i also thought a lot about college
i'm very scared.
i got back from ny this morning and decided that i miss jaytiz a lot so we hung out. i miss way too many people it's awful.
i think mollie and i are hanging out this week. how awesomeeee :)
wednesday i'm supposed to see les miserables and that's exciting. i love musicals
i wrote down a lot of books i want to read and i plan on buying one or two before the week's over.
thursday was possibly one of the worst days i've had this year.
tomorrow will be the next worst day of the year. anatomy and ap world? great.
i'm feeling very awesome and happy right now. i want it to stay. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| you've touched my heart
and touched my soul
you've changed my life
and all my goals
and love is blind,
well this i knew
my heart was blinded by you.
i've kissed your lips
and held your hand
shared your dreams
and shared your bed
i know you well
i know your smell
i've been addicted to you.
james blunt is amazing.
me and rae could listen to this song 90 million times and never tire of it.
i had one of the best afternoons i've had in a while.
new yoooooork hereee i comeee! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| "Tell me why you stare.
I took a deep breath.
The first time I saw you, my heart fell. The second time I saw you, my heart fell. The third time fourth time fifth time and every time since, my heart has fallen.
I stared at her.
You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Your hair, your eyes, your lips, your body that you haven't grown into, the way you walk, smile, laugh, the way your cheeks drop when you're mad or upset, the way you drag your feet when you're tired. Every single thing about you is beautiful.
I stared at her.
When I see you the World stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. Just you, and my eyes staring at you.
I stared.
When you're gone, the World starts again, and I don't like it as much. I can live in it, but I don't like it. I just walk around in it and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It's the best fucking thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, beautiful Girl, is why I stare at you."
--A Million Little Pieces. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i must say that although i lacked a severe amount of sleep this week, it was probably one of the best weeks i've had in a damn long time.
things at home are really starting to bug me.
WHERE AM I GOING NEXT F-ING WEEKEND?! NEW YORK BABAYYY! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| i saw berk yesterday at chipotle and it made me smile
but it also made me sad
i miss a lot of people.
i went to coop's today and he made me smile
but it also made me sad.
NO MORE WHITE LINES ACOUSTIC!
i've decided that i'm picking him up for school tomorrow.
maybe todd too.
i hung out with a very awesome person today and that made me smile a lot.
this entry is lacking many deep emotions. or words to describe them, atleast. over the past couple of days i have been overwhelmed by disappointment. unexpected things happened that really just made me think about whooooo people really are. but then amazingly awesome things happened too and i think they just make up for everything.
school really is a let down. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| my new years was very nice. i celebrateddd with some awesome girls and two boys who i'd never thought i'd hang out with. we had a sweet dinner and all that jazz complete with benny and joon and a chocolate fountain.
i got a delayed new years kiss and that's better than nothing!
plus i got a nice smooch on the cheek from raeness
i still have to finish all of my homework aah.
and we still all need to go streaking.
(yuss seniors 07) hahah
this year better be friggin awesome. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i feel like break has been three seconds long. it's already friday? are you joking? too much homework! who gives homework on B R E A K ?
i've made some pretty random but very welcome changes this past week.
i miss the cheerleaders a lot. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| today was very annoying.
edit:
earlier today was very annoying. the night time got better | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | yeah that whole "learn the meaning of the word forbidden" definitely isn't happening any time soon. ahhh. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the academy is - the phrase that pays | | Time: | 12:18 am |
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| i stayed home from school today because i was sick, and ended up sleeping until 4:30 this afternoon. i had nice dreams though :)
i still haven't gotten my haircut or gone to the gym. i miss so many people it's unbearable. cheerleading is over (hardcore practice schedule, atleast.) and now it's time to focus on school work ahh. i still haven't spent a day at barnes and noble, either.
i really need to learn the meaning of the word FORBIDDEN. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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